Today’s hottie is Annie P!! She is amazing and we love having her in Hotmess! She has made some fabulous changes!!
I can honestly say that Hotmess has changed my life forever! I absolutely love it and love the person that it has helped me become.
After having my 1st child, I was so incredibly happy to be a mom, which has always been my dream, but I found myself absolutely hating my new body. I mean HATING it!! The weight never came off. I had developed a thyroid issue, which makes losing weight extra hard. After awhile of not making any progress, I kind of gave up. I fell into some really unhealthy habits, like my morning Dr. Pepper each day. I was a busy working mom so I justified going through the drive through all the time. I was so busy being everything to everyone else, I was putting myself last, and in turn not able to reach my full potential.
I joined Hotmess for all the wrong reasons. I wanted to look good again, and I wanted to feel lovable again. A few of my coworkers kept telling me how much they loved it and how great the workout is, so I decided to give it a try. I didn’t realize how much it would change me from the inside.
I love how I instantly felt loved and welcomed. Tia has a true gift. She has the ability to show true Christlike love to people that she hardly knows. I could feel her love and loved her encouragement and infectious positivity.
Not long after I started Hotmess, my life got turned upside down. I don’t feel that I can share all the details at this time. I found myself in a situation that I never thought I would be in, and so heartbroken, I didn’t know if I could ever mend.
Tia would ask us to repeat positive affirmations like “I am beautiful, I am amazing, I am a sexy beast. . . “ But as I repeated those words, they all felt like lies. I remember one day she stood next to me and asked me to repeat “I can do hard things!” With tears streaming down my face, I said those words, and didn’t feel very strong, and thought “But I don’t WANT to be going through these hard things!”
But amazing miracles started to take place. I felt myself slowing getting stronger. Both mentally and physically. I remember the first time I was able to balance on the ball, after falling off many times attempting. I remember the first time I could do the whole set of burpees. I could sit on the floor and play with my kids more easily. All these little successes helped me gain confidence.
The best thing that I did was keep a grateful journal. Tia asked us to write 3 things daily that we are grateful for, and most days I filled up the page. While going through this incredibly hard trial, I was grateful for many things. I had learned that happiness is a choice, and the key to happiness is being grateful for what you have and staying positive.
During this last session of General Conference, Russel M. Nelson’s talk about experiencing joy really spoke to me, and I realized that many of the things he discussed were things that I had been doing at Hotmess.
He said that “Saints can be happy under every circumstance. We can feel joy even while having a bad day, a bad week, or even a bad year! My dear brother and sisters, the joy we feel has little to do with our circumstances and everything to do with the focus of our lives”.
After completing my first session of Hotmess, I attended a banquet. Tia took pictures of each of us and posted them on facebook. I usually avoid cameras like the plague because I’m not very photogenic and I usually criticize myself. But when I saw my picture I realized, DANG I do look good! I REALLY am beautiful, I CAN do hard things!!!! Saying those things every day finally took hold of me and I started to believe them.
My second session was a game changer for me. I started having more good days than bad. People would tell me how happy I look which was somewhat ridiculous to me because I still am pretty dang heartbroken. But I am enjoying my life through all of my hardships.
I now love trying on new clothes, no more crying in the dressing rooms!! Ok I have dropped quite a few pounds, and that is exciting. But I think my new confidence and positive thoughts about myself are what made the biggest difference.
I’m always asked, what I am doing to lose the weight, or how am I coping so well? I tell everyone that I am so thankful for Hotmess, all my Hotmess sisters that I love, and especially for Tia. She has been an answer to my prayers and a true instrument in God’s hands.